Dodging the negative while oozing the positive - a theory of Liberty, the delusion of Happiness, and the game of life we create for ourselves.

Life is a puzzle.

  From the day we are born, something compels our being to breath, to see, to smell, to taste, to experience touch. As we've grown scientifically independent from our overarching governmental parental mother and father dominator figures, Capitalism has grown apart from itself in multiple sections.

  It is quite incredible to see the flower-like arrangements that each icon of industry has blossomed into based upon its inheritors, however, completely amiss as to how it should engineer itself to no longer facilitate the needs of the physical presence, but more to sustain the goal of the physical.

  Case and point, Coca-Cola, a once massive force to be reckoned with, icon of industry around the world was once forced to reckon with the demand of a growing population by changing from expensive glass bottles to plastic bottles, also, to increase profit margins for investors, moved from genuine sugar sweeteners to high frucose corn syrup - further creating problems with obesity, malnurished teens, bone decalcification, and all sorts of conspiracy theories... followed by a shift to bottled water, a return to organic based business, but still, producing tons of tons of plastic waste without any investment in the cleanup of the oceans - and yet, I'm sure they would love to be involved if the cleanup was popularized by the public... an interest of which that has yet to be seen.

There is a huge bloat of waste floating in our midst, and we are unable to stop our consumption, and so therefore we are unable to jump to the next step of corporate endeavors which would be to aim towards clean up before we can even think about engaging in another war.... the time has come and passed for such simple solutions.

Human beings have been carefully segregated into separate colored bins of various shapes and colors, with various height and widths, sections and compartments, complicated organizational methods with kiosks for those that might of lost their way in an attempt to find their missing library card.

Within these complex dream barriers lies infinite doorways with infinitely complicated codes, each with a set of traditional values, numbers, alien greek symbologies, lost dialects of ancient aboriginal pedigrees, animalistic barbarians, beasts who speak in vocal cues but not ever in language.

Our intelligence is a galactic intelligence, and yet as our senses become synchronized with this powerful primordial deity, we soon realize that this Spirit has been here the entire time.

All things in this world evolve, from one level of existence to the next. If a wall or barrier is found to stand in the way of progress, it is replaced with a stronger barrier once circumvented. These process of refining, re-engineering, repairing and maintaining by putting out the least amount of energy required to sustain such output, is divine, and is what we should strive for in the long run.

For far too long we have purposefully and exponentially exploded life into a complicated structure of over 7 billion people living in existince of relative harmony between the ironically mad-religious fiends versus the mad-political fiends.

We are tired of bad ideas, bad apples, and bad policies. We have no interest in being told what it is that defines our freedoms, no more so than being told that killing someone is a bad thing - we are well aware that murder is bad, however, what is so wrong with being well armed in defense?

What we have taught ourselves is that we, in being American, must apologize for being to heavy handed, when being anything less than prudent in our violent contempt towards others should reflect chivalry and respect... however, if you look at specific states who reflect the icons of our country, there is a far and wide departure of these 'wholesome' values that the censored media so willingly displays.

Emotional control is a lost art - being completely lost is the understanding of human body language, denial of truths, open and blatent stereotyping followed by leading questions which mask up our unnerved state of consciousness.

What we believe to be so secure and concrete is relatively nothing in comparison to the past this Earth has survived.

In the Mythological stories of the Greek myths, the same ones that were raped and warped into the man-as-god roman empire contained, that above all else man exuding excellence in religious piety was sublime, that regardless of actions God was to be portrayed by men, and in that we lost our empire, the Roman Catholic Church was brought about, and the wars against specific types of people was waged upon the need for this unification of sorts.

This never prevailed, but the ideas have survived, Gnosticism and Alchemy are still alive and well, evolved, changed, and departed from theocratic nonsense, but still somehow ingrained into every coded frequency of the human physiological makeup. These beings came from light and darkness, from all avenues of life, man and women, lovers and haters, demi-god and angel, and there are infinite competitors in space that would state their alien planets are more entitled than our own.

Water is a very valuable structure, and if we fail to realize the impact of our population has by the percentage of water in our bodies, the frozen matter in freezers around the globe, the loss of land mass due to the selling of dehydration to the masses via bottle water, and the huge amounts of water still captured inside of bottles floating in the oceans with their lids still attached... these common sense things do not sit well with the democratic people because the mess of the cleanup is just too much to think about.

Simply put, water is the key to all things, then air, then soil. We can use soil over and over and over again, but not when the rain fails to persist, when the water tables go too low, when the water never returns to the source - this presents a problem, and nature balances herself to the overall demand - once there is a threat of life beyond our existing social problems - when, in the grand scheme of things are all just very carefully drawn out 'don't do bad things you naughty child' while wall street skims out billions of wasted dollars.... really, a kid with a cannabis plant gets more scrutiny in this culture than a politician who is taking bribes from the Koch Brothers.

What we need to begin to do is focus upon the one thing that creates and binds people together.

The support of fair treatment of all minorities as equal as the white middle class, then, allow the community to engage veterans with direct support providing the exact same opportunities you'd provide to a brother, sister, mother, or father.

There should be a different 'ranking' system upon your end of time in service for Service members - not all soldiers are in the same league of amount of sacrifice they made - combat veterans are combat soldiers, not support soldiers. Some support roles see more action than others, so it's highly dependent upon the reviewing leadership to note in the soldier's record of any positive or negative review that their leadership might have - from my personal experience in the US Army, I'd say that having a newly designed 'review system' would be much better than the check the block stuff we do today.

We train often, and as an active duty M1A1 armor crewmember who worked with infantry on the daily and participated in more infantry training sessions than armor training sessions, I say that there is a lot to learn from our more advanced fighting units before they go off to advanced overseas stations and get their asses handed to them from lack of knowledge.

Special forces are a waste if we don't use them on our own - and even then, we could use previous special forces to integrate and advise our strongest units into lean and decisive fighting units - the possibilities of the future for our military are endless if we get away from this post-cold-war anti-sensitivity training garbage.

All things in life are war and politics - from red ants battling black ants, to tigers hunting gazelle - you and I see nature, whereas the creatures see survival or death. If you or I get in the way of this process, you can guarantee we will be devoured as lunch ourselves as this is the way of nature.

There are no prisoners amongst beasts, however mankind must be indifferent to this curse of being fair and impartial, using cunning and subversiveness to create the enemy we wish to defeat in the future - if we desire to make our enemy into refugees, than this is what our population must see as the future of our lands.

We reflect the worst of our enemy with the failed policies of our ignorance in how we enable our own people to sustain their own ignorance.

Without the ability to instill a sense of being good at birth, instead people do as they please when left to their own devices - incest, rape, violence, cultism, liberalism, environmentalism, institutionalism, dominator culture, demonic rituals, bad ideology, etc. the list goes on, and most of these are just shell games played out by priestly characters who wear white robes and speak to weird beings in 140 characters or less.

The idiots out there aren't the ones thumbing the wheels on their mice or scrolling the pages of their facebook, no, the idiots out there are the ones who are doing damage control trying to keep this awakening human mind contained - it got out of the proverbial box in the 50's and it's been getting every last digit in the game since then - we thought we contained it by putting it in with a specific set of drug-behaviors, but now we understand that the drug culture is not bad, it is the stereotype we put into the culture that defined who or how we persecute the offenders.

We stuck race cards to behavior traits, still, you can be considered black if you're walking or talking like a black person - it is shameful to see how twisted evil can be when enabled to do so, but we do it, not the other way around. We create characters that portray the perspective others are hoping to see.

If we wish to see other people behave as monkeys, we will watch them until they begin to do so, and then we'll say internally "See, SEE, I told you so, they all behave like this all the time..." but then moments later we see the same person hand off a flower to a young person and then we are utterly baffled by this - well, some are, and some aren't.

The real truth is that we're not going back in time, there are no laws that need to be reinstated because people can choose to blow their livers up with alcohol or kill their hearts off with tobacco, or blow their minds with ayuhasca, I mean, it's all there - it's infinite of course, and what we're getting to is the absolute collection of all these things into a single point.

Hinduism had it right - Buddhism had it right - Gnostics had it right - Monotheism had it right - Alchemy had it right - Joseph Smith definitely did NOT have it right... I mean, the depths of lies that this guy went to in order to facilitate his own personal twist on the matter of marriage - well, lets just say that polygamy does not match up well with a nuclear family model - I tell you what.

And what if they were right or wrong? Why should we be fearful of cults in our presence? Well, look at the states that they dominate in - are these the examples we're looking to shine above our own existence in the name of God Almighty? I don't think so - if a state that is controlled by a religiously armed zealousy, it's safe to assume that the reflection of the occult is a reflection of the internal constitution of fixing their own trash, and what are the statistics?

States that lack freedom have higher suicide rates, higher teen pregnancy, higher still birth rates, higher abortion rates, higher poverty rates, more drug violence, higher rates of homelessness, and the presence of a fearfully obedient middle class, a few very wealthy religious elders, and a seemingly surface laid-quiet of social decency towards our fellow man... but god forbid if someone hurts another person or an act of 'terror' rings out - you see every bell and whistle of a crazy bee-hive spring out of the woodwork, civilians with fully automatic machine guns go racing around lookin for them black people that took our lives from us... it's insane, and it is inherently American it seems.

What we've grown accustomed to is a good fight, and the other side of the fence never took a punch to the face, they sat on their side in comfort and silken blankets and they never considered that they might lost it all, that their cash is worthless and that their values are bankrupt - as I write this thousands of people are considering completely removing their life savings from the stock market, and rightly so!

This time right now, the stock market has dropped 25% in less than a year, that's huge - that's so much money being lost on a daily basis from people buying back their losses, it's just spread out over the entire duration of 19 trillion dollars.

The computer algorithms are changing the statistics daily because we have no idea what to do in the long run - cash is over supplied, and nobody can afford the cost of living.

Disability to veterans is becoming less and less valuable - 100% disability with retirement barely pays for a 2 bedroom house and expenses in seattle - one must relocate to a state where equal access to Cannabis is somewhat cheaper, which is nowhere to be found.

In the blanket attempt to sustain an economy off of a dwindling housing market, we also opened up the market of real-estate to russian and chinese buyers to offset the debts we owed these huge economies. Well, we also trade on their markets, and we hedge a ton more money than they do, or they would ever be willing to do, and as a result, we bet our money on future tech rather than fossil fuels.

The black eye this gave fossil fuels triggered the greatest recession of fuel prices since the 80's perhaps greater is the fact that Russia is now engaged in full fledged cold-era like war fare and we have not developed a military strategy to contain their unchecked use of brute military force.

The deaths of thousands of lives are being lost on a daily basis, due, in part to the collapse of the oil price from 120 bucks per barrel, to now a measly sub 30 bucks per barrel - what does this mean?

Well, in a Capitalist society where we have multiple markets to work with, gas prices go up and down and we can pretty much tax and stave off cheap oil with inflation and deflation, but not in this case - the market is flooded because demand in China dropped, suddenly, like a whip-flash of supply and demand that has never happened before.

We experienced a unique 'hiccup' that coincided with the collapse of the Saudi Arabian oil market once Iran sanctions were lifted and Iran flooded the market with stored crude reserves. This gives Iran a solid 8 month shot at buying as many military weapons as possible from Iran, Syria, and other anti-zionist forces or anti-russian forces currently invoking world war 3.

This is a very promising time for Arab Speaking nations, excluding Jordan and Egypt, as they are already facing internal strife caused by Islamic-state Terrorism - these are not Islam people, these are just mentally sick Durge bastards who are thirsty for revenge. These are akin to politicians who use god as a reason for electing them to a Democratic Republic - nor should you trust socialists.

There is no place for socialism in a democratic country, especially when Capitalism is so infected with greed in needing 'more' that anything that refuses to completely disenfranchise non-american constitutional rights or ideas is going to be tossed in the proverbial garbage disposal of bad ideas.

Everyone seems to be told that there is this rumor that being born in America grants you the ability to speak with affluence and character, like your name represents something bigger than me, or you, or anyone else - it is the collective influence of the words you speak that carry with it the inspiration for others. People believe in one thing to be true because it's better than the other options.

Humans worry about the things they've never tried because if they have nothing to judge it by, the best guess is safer than the bad advice sometimes - depending upon the circumstances at hand.

It is a fundamental fact that people do not like to be reminded of the disgusting fact that we all lived inside of our mother's vagina for up to 9 months, that when we were born we were covered in vaginal tissues, that many of us sucked from our own mothers breasts, that we were conceived during sex between two beings, and that one sperm among millions of millions of sperm was chosen to be you, just you, just your perspective.

All the things that come into our mind consume our time, consume our thoughts, consume our worry engines, and there is no such thing as worry - we are TOLD to worry, we are TOLD to fight, and when we have so much to be thankful for, we're really held out to dry for our convictions we hold ourselves to be true.

We are not interested in domination, we are interested in liberation.

Thank you for reading!

- Kory Noble - 

Life, Death, and a Noble Theory of Everything

On July 20th, 1981, I was born in Grants Pass, Oregon into a family of two loving parents and 3 older siblings. 2 sisters one brother, and a house located in the countryside far away from the noises and distractions of city living.

I lived in nature, and played with the birds and bees, hunted wildlife with my dog and discovered more about reality than any person I knew. My idea of God was rooted in a firm belief of Christian family values, and a very strict and disciplined father and mother that loved us all very much.

My father was a veteran of Vietnam, my mother a veteran of being married to a soldier, was also a product of a lost generation of recreational drug users that faced horrific warfare upon consumption of various types of plants. My father was so paranoid of his Marijuana consumption, he disliked being pictured consuming a joint, and distanced himself from being associated with any sort of addiction. His father had committed suicide, and according to my father, was rather abusive to him and his other siblings when he grew up.

Discipline is one thing, physical abuse is another, liberal abuse is a whole other violation within, that I saw tear apart my family from within.

My father was a garbageman for 19 years, and was later fired from the Garbage force for 'failing a urinalysis' for THC... after 19 years of perfect performance, not a single accident, no problems with the law whatsoever... he lost his entire life.

His mother, my Grandmother Ferne was incredibly supportive. She was a strong Conservative like we were and she fought for legality of the human experience and followed party lines whole hearted.

While we stressed sobriety in our family as we were very 'correct' in the community, always striving to avoid judgement or criticism of others, however, gossip within the confines of the Church was always welcome with my mom.

My Grandmother loaned my father money in order to purchase an addition to the house so he could build surfboards full time. Perhaps a little bit too soon, I suppose as he did well, but did not produce enough product to really create much of an income for him and my mother.

By the time I graduated high school, I was already enlisted in the Army as a M1A1 Crewmember and before the start of 2001, I was on my way to Friedberg, Germany to answer the call of my Duty as a Soldier.

The open mind of Europe expanded my consciousness of how enslaved Americans were becoming.

I ate mushrooms in Amsterdam, a totally crazy thing to do consider the war on drugs was still full swing, and they were actively criminalizing anyone that messed up... although getting drunk and crashing cars into buildings or people was a normal thing... punishable,but something that became 'the norm' for quite some time.

The mushroom took me on a 8 hour journey and showed me how powerful my intuition had become. I realized later that this was not just my experience, but that everyone remembered that moment in time, perhaps more vividly than any other experience in my past in the Army.

Fast forward to 2014, and I met people who came to me and spoke to me in the most powerful of voices, and they saw something within me that defied even their wildest imaginations.

I looked to the VA for relief, although I was issued medications, I had severe reactions that caused me to trigger PTSD Stress reactions causing me to retreat into darkness to avoid stressors.

I started feeling the pull of wireless channels around me, the stress of plants outside my building, the pain of animals as they were locked inside fearful of their owners never returning home, only to be filled with bliss at roughly the same time everyone usually got home.

I was evicted 2 months ago, left for dead, although people would try to tell me otherwise, every single person that I valued the most had rejected me, for no fault of my own.

Marijuana was the only physical thing that kept me at peace in these moments of dark living, even when I was imprisoned for driving through Utah just a month ago for 4 days and fined thousands of dollars for 'Driving under the influence' of which there is NO STUDY PROVING that Marijuana is dangerous to people who use it for medicinal purposes.

There is a different type of chemical for every type of person, and I am fine driving, and I am positive that if it was NOT a Federally illegal plant, not a drug, not a synthetic marijuana, a non-tobacco, non-alcohol plant that does not intoxicate, it liberates. IF you are able to drive and are pulled over, it is probably because you were meant to be pulled over, to show you that the Law is NOT your friend.

Life is a simple process. Everything flows, and everything goes.

If you are unable to go, then just be present.

If being present is the only answer, this is the best thing to do.

If being in public is causing more harm than good, stay indoors.

If you are afraid of everything, then you are probably well adjusted.

If you aren't afraid of anything, then Mother Nature will show you what you are missing out on.

We are over stimulated by the drugs that we deny as being polluting, and addicted to a movement of processes that serves nothing but self-sustainment.

I suggest we seek answers from within, we shift to a balanced work structure of splitting the entire work processes into a very family based community effort to reduce movement, exposure to entropy, and the removal of ego from all things political, to include the subversive attempts to remove religion completely from the political process.

If we are to remove all senses of religion, we must rule that science is not to be worshipped as it is only a pathway of defining boundaries for the future, in light of the present, with the knowledge that there is no future without history, without education, without infinite free knowledge.

America is so glued to value instead of values, that we have lost sight of what is the most important.

My theory of everything is simple.

You are a holographic existence of 6 dimensions. The Seventh Dimension is simplicity in clarity, of defining your language to all layers of reality.

Your experience, however fruitful, is only pertinent if you can provide plenty enough technologies through inventions by enabling yourself first, then others second, giving everyone a gift of Love through a simple hug and a letting go of our idea of who God is or is not.

There is a God, of course there is - it is how we determine what we are going to do next that defines life in the present.

As I discover these pathways, I pray that I remove these infinite ideas and donate them to the infinite knowledge of the Universe, as all things are possible through Jesus Christ, of which the Marijuana plant is not such a distant relative of.

Because you see a plant, you think of this being as being different than you, not so much as an alien, but as a cousin, a distant relative of a separate species. Within these species we find a Cannabinoid that HEALS the mind by connecting to your naturally created receptors that used to be hard wired, but have been burned away by the lack of creativity in our lives.

We are addicted to money, that green paper that is filled with disease and bad intentions.

That is not our fault as consumers, but rather just the product of your Culture. This is not something to hate, but something to look at and consider... is it really worth it?

America is responsible for a genocide every single year from Tobacco Smokers... and not a single person in the history of pot smoking history has been killed by smoking weed... why is it illegal still?

Because we make money off of everything surrounding the Drug WAR.

This is not a war, this is a political gamble, a war of attrition, and an archaic battle that has no purpose other than maintaining CONTROL.

You are a part of this control, as am I - we are all part of this mess together, but how responsible is your intellect in knowing that you could change it, but you just blew by someone who was YELLING at the top of their lungs to stop and think!!!... and you just kept on going?

Who are you to look back at drug users you weak minded peons.

You business people assume that because you have a job that you are afraid of losing, you are somehow NOT addicted to Time or Money.... bullshit, total bullshit.

You are even afraid to swear in public - WHY!?

Censorship? Confusion? Soft Language? What?

We have ran ourselves into the ground, not because we are men or women or jewish or religious or political or war mongers, but because we HATE other people that do not have our frame of consciousness.

I have seen the destruction of men, and it is disgusting. 3 Tours in Iraq and a purple heart and multiple awards taught me that if I don't do it... SOMEBODY ELSE WILL...

I realized that I was fortunate, scarred but not missing limbs, wounded inside but capable of coming back.

I was forced to be not-sensitive, strong, defiant, resilient, purposeful, loving and everything that my mother said to look for in a woman... and yet, I was raped, abused, left for dead, criminalized, and then homeless to where I am now... for no fault of my own.

The VA pushed me out, telling me I was insane - that to have a cure for mental illness made me an outcast. They even searched through my research records to discover what it was that made me have a psychotic break - their own medication for a bad skin disease that I contracted in 2002, Prednisone ... subsided the onset of what they called "Erethemia Multiforma" but was later diagnosed as Behcet's Disease. A life debliatating disease I contracted after receiving Anthrax Vaccines overseas.

That medication stole from me my life, and up until this last year, was completely untreated long term, only subsiding the outbreak was the best they could do. More Prednisone, more reactions, more violent behavior.

Finally I had enough and I self medicated and meditated and sought answers from within.

In that process I asked for help from all places, started a gofundme (www.gofundme.com/korynoble) and pushed myself harder and harder in writing, thinking, and reflecting on the thoughts and ideas gonig through my mind.

The things I was seeing were impossible, the interactions with human beings became life altering, and I saw that my purpose was well beyond what I had imagined. I was a divine being, I was a messenger, a source of light for others... just like all of you are too.

Each person is given a set amount of time to realize their purpose, and then, like that, it is decided and the choice is over. There is a power grab and thousands of people search and cling and bang and clamor for liberation from this extremely powerful intellectual force, of which fear is the motivating causality.

The media is over charged with emotionally disconnected beings, not seeing the larger picture because their ignorance is flashing right before their eyes.  They become the arbiturs of their own fate, and the more ignorant they are, the more they become entangled in the Quantum Weirdness of which God is directly in control of through Chaos, or Chronos, Chronus, and Gravity.

Time has ended, it is not time that we face, but Relativity.

The approaching object that reaches our perspective is Death incarnate. God is Death, He is my Guide, and Mother Nature through Gaia and the Gaia Hypothesis by James R. Lovelock (SEE: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QqwZJDEZ9Ng)

People always have good intentions behind their decisions, however, the over all agenda of the rich and powerful is to keep you in control.

You want to know The Truth?

We have days, not weeks, not months, not years, not decades, not centuries, not millenium... DAYS.

We have just enough time to see the painful reality of our emotional failures coming down around us.

People cannot change their minds, and if they cannot change their minds, then we as a civilization are doomed... but there is light at the end of the tunnel.

Religion is held to Constitutional values and legal laws and individual unalienable rights.

Payment to those that have spent time in jail for non-violent drug related crimes should be paid back in lost time as a retroactive tribute to those that have been locked up instead of The Community and State seeking non-religious or non-specific means to counsel with the help of Marijuana and stereotypes of drug-abuse as something that is not a war on drugs, but a war on humanity.

IF you are a person who holds something against another, you need to seek deep within for understanding and truthful answers.

Your perspective is just that... YOURS - do not enforce your opinion on others, and see wisdom in all the words that the children speak and do not scorn them or beat them or turn them away.

Foster the child you would wish others to have, and prepare that child for a future of infinite doom if we do not change our ways.

IF you are blind and you abuse drugs of any kind, I pray that the drugs will turn against these people who abuse them, to seek God's wisdom through Gnosis and Hermeticism and Archaic Christian Beliefs through historical context, not witch hunting or God Beliefs.

Fools fear things, God fears no evil - why should you?

Death is the ally to those that are friends of God.

I assure you, your perspective of God is small.

I'm available for interviews as well as any questions or raps by request - email only -

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Welcome all to the inner workings of a creative mind...

My hands started shaking.

Well... This is new.

Ok hand... uh, stop shaking...

Still shaking... ok.

"You alright Noble?"

'Yeah man, I'm good...'

Staff Sergeant Neal eyed me over... pausing for a couple seconds as we both looked at my shaking oakley covered fists... both shaking uncontrollably...

"I need s..s.smoke."

... as I stumbled out into the blazing hot sun, Iraq finally caught up to me. My body was emotionless. I felt unplugged, out of control... like a trigger that just kept on firing.

"You're going to mental health when we get back... That shit isn't normal. That isn't normal at all."

'Roger that. I'll head over there as soon as we get back.'

"And hey, fuck those mother fuckers that say that mental health is a place where weak people go... you ain't no bitch. You gotta deal with fender brender (a side joke for the Platoon leader we had at the time) day in and day out, barerra as a driver, and smith in the back hatch talking shit non stop for 12 hour stints... You're behind a .50 caliber machine gun, signed for at least 20 million dollars worth of equipment. You've got 8 soldiers lives at risk here, and your platoon leader wants to take a fucking spit bath in the middle of an operation. Your vehicle is in top condition for being that piece of shit they issued you just a few months ago. You got the entire fucking platoon's trucks that were all beat to shit with multiple deadlines in 5 mother fucking days. We lost griff, we lost henkes, and you know what, we're probably going to get more fucked up.. but guess what, we need you to have your head on straight and on a swivel.

If you can't do the job, we need to get you medicated so you can get through this if you choose to. We need everyone we can get..."

.....

A few weeks later I was on Lexapro and Seroquel, and finally my nerves returned to me...

...but a few weeks later changed everything...

My platoon was hit hard and fast by an IED. I nearly lost my leg had I not moved my body out of the way just moments before.

I remember seeing stars, sparks, and smelling the ammonia of the explosives that ripped through the belly of the stryker... the heat was horrific, dust everywhere, shrapnel splattering all over myself and the platoon leader. The smallest pieces of that shit just made you bleed like a razer sliced through you... I couldn't understand what happened.

You think you're invincible, then it happens and you fear everything.

I just snapped into reality instantly. I was taken out of action and I don't think I ever got my mind back from that moment.

It's always a haze remember what I thought about just before it happened.

The thoughts of hating everything in life, wishing I had made a different choice, and then my left butt cheek fell asleep and by adjusting that simple motion, it saved my life.

Through getting through the bullshit, I found myself again.

This helps me think to not think too much.

https://youtu.be/O7gU2XHh3SY